What This Feels Like

It starts like a gentle wave of possibility. You wake up with more oomphEnergy and enthusiasm for engaging with daily activities that feels notably different from your baseline. than usual - not dramatically different, just more willing and excited to get out of bed and engage with whatever the day brings. Sleep feels optional in a way that seems almost efficient. Three or four hours feels like eight, and you wonder why you ever needed more.

The energy builds gradually, like a fire catching. Your thoughts move faster, jumping between ideas with an electric quality that makes everything seem more interesting and achievable. Projects multiply because each one feels urgent and completely doable. Your body can't quite sit still - there's a restless quality under your skin that expresses itself through pacing, rapid speech, or fidgeting that others might struggle to follow.

Socially, you become magnetic. Conversations flow effortlessly, you're funnier and more charismatic, boundaries feel unnecessary. LibidoSexual desire and interest in sexual activity. often surges during these periods - you feel incredibly attractive and sexual, everything seems flirtatious, and desire becomes consuming and immediate. The world feels more vivid, colors brighter, music more beautiful.

As the episodeA distinct period of abnormally elevated, expansive, or irritable mood lasting at least four days for hypomania or one week for mania. progresses, confidence peaks into feeling special or chosen. You feel capable of anything, like rules are suggestions for other people. Decision-making becomes impulsive because your judgment feels crystal clear, even when it's significantly impaired. This creates a paradox: it feels too good to be a problem, even as consequences start mounting around you.

Eventually, the electric energy that felt so positive begins to feel consuming. You might reach a state where you're tired, hungry, and groggy, but still electrically charged and unable to rest. Some people describe feeling like an easily distractible, overstimulated puppy - vulnerable to being talked into things they normally wouldn't consider, making decisions that seem logical in the moment but dangerous in hindsight.

Common experiences: staying up all night because sleep feels like wasting time; believing you've discovered something revolutionary; talking so fast others can't follow; maxing out credit cards on "investments"; feeling irresistibly attractive to others; pursuing multiple romantic or sexual interests simultaneously; making grand life plans at 3 AM that seem brilliant; starting ten different projects because each feels urgent and achievable.

Why This Might Be Happening

During elevated mood periodsEpisodes of unusually high energy, mood, or activity levels during manic or hypomanic states in bipolar disorder., your brain's mood regulation system shifts into overdrive. DopamineA neurotransmitter involved in reward, motivation, and pleasure that becomes dysregulated during mood episodes. floods reward centers while norepinephrineA neurotransmitter that affects alertness, arousal, and attention, contributing to the energized feeling during episodes. accelerates mental and physical processes, creating the perfect neurochemical storm of euphoria and boundless energy.

The prefrontal cortexThe brain region responsible for executive functions like planning, decision-making, and impulse control. - your brain's judgment and impulse controlThe ability to pause and think before acting on immediate urges or desires. center - becomes less active while emotional and reward centers dominate decision-making. This explains why confidence can escalate into grandiosityAn inflated sense of self-importance or abilities that goes beyond normal confidence. and why decisions that feel brilliant in the moment can have serious consequences. It's like your brain's brake system goes offline while the accelerator gets stuck.

The brain's reward systemNeural pathways that process pleasure, motivation, and reinforcement, becoming hyperactive during elevated mood episodes. becomes hyperactive during these episodes, making everything feel more pleasurable and meaningful than usual. This explains why ordinary activities suddenly seem incredibly important or exciting, and why the episode feels so good that seeking treatment seems unnecessary. Your brain is essentially flooding itself with its own reward chemicals, creating an artificial sense that everything you're doing is brilliant and necessary.

Meanwhile, stress hormones like cortisolA hormone released during stress that can disrupt sleep and mood regulation when elevated for extended periods. often remain elevated even during the euphoric phases, creating the paradox of feeling simultaneously energized and eventually exhausted. This is why many people describe feeling "tired but wired" - your body is running on neurochemical overdrive that feels sustainable until it suddenly isn't. The same brain differences that create these challenging episodes also provide the capacity for extraordinary creativity and focus when properly supported.

These neurochemical patterns manifest differently from person to person, even within the same diagnosis. Some people experience primarily euphoric episodes with boundless energy and creativity, while others have more irritable or mixed episodes with agitation and restlessness. The duration varies dramatically too - some people have episodes lasting days, others weeks or months. Rapid cyclingA pattern of bipolar disorder where four or more mood episodes occur within a 12-month period., where episodes shift quickly, creates its own unique challenges as the brain struggles to find stability between extremes. Your specific pattern of episodes is as individual as your fingerprint, shaped by your unique brain chemistry, life experiences, and genetic factors.

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Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison's neuroimaging research reveals the fundamental brain imbalance driving elevated mood episodes: the amygdala (emotion center) becomes hyperactive while the prefrontal cortex (judgment center) shows decreased activity. This creates a brain state where emotions feel intensely meaningful while the systems that normally provide caution and reflection go offline.

Simultaneously, functional MRI studies show the brain's reward circuits - particularly the nucleus accumbens and ventral tegmental area - flooding with activity. This hyperactivation explains why everything feels extraordinarily significant and pleasurable during episodes. Your brain is essentially rewarding itself for existing, making ordinary decisions feel like brilliant insights and routine activities seem urgently important.

PET scan studies during episodes show this reward flooding comes with a cost: increased glucose metabolism in motor areas (explaining the restless energy) while areas responsible for impulse control show decreased activity. The brain is literally burning more fuel to maintain the elevated state while simultaneously reducing its ability to apply the brakes.

Dr. Robert Post's research on "kindling" shows that this process becomes more efficient over time. Early episodes may require significant life stressors to trigger, but repeated episodes actually rewire the brain to become more sensitive to mood changes. This means smaller triggers can eventually spark the same neurochemical cascade, explaining why episodes can seem to come out of nowhere in people with established bipolar patterns.

What Can Help You Through the Next 5 Minutes

When you're caught in the electric energy of an elevated mood episode, you need strategies that work with your current brain state rather than against it:

  • Ground your electric energy: Do jumping jacks, take a cold shower, or go for a brisk walk. Channel the restless energy into something physical that won't cause harm. Avoid activities that could escalate the energy further.
  • Set a reality check timer: Every 15 minutes, stop and ask yourself: "Am I making decisions I'd normally make?" "How much sleep have I gotten?" "What would [trusted person] think of this choice?" Use your phone's timer to create these pause points.
  • Implement the 24-hour rule: For any decision involving money, relationships, or major life changes, commit to waiting 24 hours before acting. Write the idea down instead of acting on it immediately.
  • Contact your safety person: Reach out to a trusted friend or family member who knows your patterns. Sometimes an outside perspective can help you recognize what you can't see from inside the episode.
  • Remove temptation immediately: Put your credit cards somewhere inaccessible, log out of shopping websites, and limit your access to communication platforms where you might send messages you'll regret.
  • Use the "shaken soda" technique: If you feel like energy is building up inside you like a shaken can of soda, try slow, deep breathing while pressing your feet firmly into the ground and your hands firmly against a wall. Focus on releasing that fizzy pressure.

Remember that during episodes, your brain genuinely believes every impulse is urgent and important. These strategies help create space between impulse and action, giving your prefrontal cortex a chance to come back online.

What Are Some Healthy Long-Term Solutions

Managing elevated mood episodes requires building systems that catch episodes early and reduce their frequency and intensity:

  • Develop an early warning system: Track sleep, energy levels, and mood daily using an app or journal. Learn to recognize your personal early signs - maybe it's needing less sleep, increased libido, or feeling more "on" than usual. The earlier you catch it, the easier it is to manage.
  • Create pre-planned safety protocols: When you're stable, write down specific actions to take when episodes begin: who to call, what medications to take, which credit cards to hide, and what decisions to delay. Having a plan removes the need to make good decisions when your judgment is impaired.
  • Build a support network education system: Teach trusted friends and family members to recognize your warning signs and give them permission to express concern. Create code words or signals that help them intervene without triggering defensiveness.
  • Establish routine anchors: Maintain non-negotiable daily structures like consistent sleep times, regular meals, and medication schedules. These anchors can help stabilize mood regulation even when other areas of life feel chaotic.
  • Work with a psychiatrist on medication optimization: Mood stabilizersMedications that help regulate mood swings and prevent manic and depressive episodes in bipolar disorder. can significantly reduce episode frequency and intensity. Having a fast-acting medication like a benzodiazepineA class of medications that can quickly reduce anxiety and agitation, sometimes used short-term during mood episodes. for episode management can provide a crucial intervention tool.
  • Identify and avoid known triggersEnvironmental, emotional, or physical factors that can precipitate or worsen mood episodes.: Learn what tends to trigger your episodes - stress, sleep disruption, seasonal changes, certain medications, or major life events. While you can't avoid all triggers, awareness helps you prepare and take preventive action.

The goal isn't to eliminate your natural energy and creativity, but to help you access these qualities in sustainable ways that don't put your life at risk. With proper support systems, many people learn to recognize and manage episodes while preserving the positive aspects of their neurological differences.

When Should I Consider Medical Intervention

Seek immediate medical help if you experience any of the following during an elevated mood period:

  • Sleep decreases to less than 4 hours per night for multiple consecutive nights
  • Engaging in risky sexual behavior or pursuing multiple sexual partners impulsively
  • Spending large amounts of money or making major financial decisions without normal consideration
  • Using alcohol or drugs to enhance or maintain the elevated mood
  • Aggressive or hostile behavior when people try to slow you down or express concern
  • Any thoughts that seem grandiose beyond normal confidence (believing you have special powers, are famous, or have discovered something world-changing)
  • Engaging in any behavior that could result in serious consequences for your relationships, job, finances, or legal status
  • Taking medications in ways other than prescribed, especially in dangerous amounts

Medical intervention during elevated periods often involves medication adjustmentsChanges to psychiatric medications to help stabilize mood and reduce episode intensity., safety planningA collaborative process of creating specific strategies to manage crisis situations and reduce risk during episodes., and sometimes hospitalization if the episode poses significant risks. Early intervention can often prevent full manic episodesSevere mood episodes lasting at least one week with significantly impaired functioning, often requiring hospitalization. from developing and reduce the duration and intensity of hypomanic episodesMilder elevated mood episodes lasting at least four days with noticeable changes but less impairment than mania.. Remember that seeking help when you feel good requires courage, but it's one of the most important things you can do for your long-term stability.

You're Not Imagining This

The creativity, energy, and confidence you experience during these periods can feel genuinely wonderful - because in many ways, they are. The same neurological differencesVariations in brain structure and function that characterize bipolar disorder and affect mood regulation. that create challenging episodes also provide access to states of incredible productivity, insight, and charisma that many people never experience.

It's completely understandable why seeking help feels counterintuitive when you feel great. The dilemma of "why would I want to treat something that feels so good?" is one that nearly everyone with bipolar disorder faces. You're not being dramatic, and you're not weak for struggling with this balance. Many highly successful artists, entrepreneurs, and innovators have navigated this same challenge.

If you find yourself thinking you're "faking it" or that you could "just snap out of it if you tried hard enough," please be gentle with yourself. These episodes involve real neurochemical changes that are beyond conscious control - you can't willpower your way out of altered brain chemistry any more than you could think your way out of diabetes. The self-blame that often accompanies these experiences is part of the struggle, not evidence that you're not trying hard enough or that your experience isn't real.

Managing elevated mood periods doesn't mean eliminating your natural creativity, energy, or confidence. Mood stabilizationThe process of reducing extreme mood swings while maintaining access to the full range of normal emotional experiences. allows you to access these positive qualities in sustainable ways that don't put your life, relationships, or health at risk. Think of it like the difference between a controlled fire that provides warmth and light versus a wildfire that burns everything in its path.

The same brain that can feel overwhelming during episodes is also capable of remarkable focus, innovation, and emotional depth when supported with proper care. Your experiences during these periods aren't "fake" or meaningless - they're expressions of your brain's unique capabilities. Learning to work with your neurology rather than against it can help you harness these strengths while protecting yourself from the dangers that uncontrolled episodes can bring.